We are so close to the finish line! Many of you have been asking how I’m actually feeling.. It’s quite humorous when ladies tell me that I make pregnancy look easy. My response over and over again is “SERIOUSLY?!”
Even though I am striving to be progressive in most things, everything is 2x more complex after 30 weeks. It’s been difficult for me to stay active. Gathering my thoughts together can be a hassle as well. I can feel my energy being joint with another little human which makes me feel drained quicker. The round ligament has to be the most uncomfortable yet painful reality that I am dealing with. There are days when things go somewhat smoothly and then there are days when pregnancy hits a rough path.
The closer we get to the due date, the more stress I feel on my body. As the baby gets bigger with each day, she still manages to bounce off the walls. I felt her first kick at 20 weeks; since then, she makes me laugh at how much she loves her space. She makes me truly passionate about staying mobile. I choose stairs over the elevator every time to prove that I still can. My husband and I go on evening walks to stay in shape. I enjoy doing stretches to relieve the tension. I get chiropractic care to align my back and hips. At the end of the day, I get worn out physically rather than mentally.
Instead of counting down the days to the due date, I’ve decided to enjoy my pregnancy journey and our summertime together. Escaping from mental pressure creates an enjoying atmosphere for my baby and I. I put effort into ignoring any negative vibes that are coming from the current environment, people around me, or my self-consciousness. I am currently at peace with the place I’m at in my life. I can disconnect from the world and fully focus on the energy of the present moment. Pregnancy is the time for me to mentally enter the “stress free” zone.
As uncomfortable and merciless pregnancy may seem, look, or feel, at the end of the day I would never give up the opportunity of growing a baby. It is all worth it! Behind all of these gloomy and rough days, there comes a bright and beautiful baby girl. Sometimes I have to pinch myself because this all seems surreal. I’ve witnessed her foot stretching my skin as if she wants out. She also fist-bumped me that other day.. Too bad I can’t put a face to her! I can’t even imagine what she’s going to look like! I honestly love being pregnant. I’d do it 5 more times! haha
A few weeks ago, Teddy and I went to see a local tulip show here in MN. The tulips were so diverse and unique. We had a breathtaking experience and were in awe of God’s art.